Everyday I come to the same conclusion. The harder you try the faster you die. The faster you die the sooner you go and when you look back at life you'll wander the road that you took and wonder the why as to why you went the way that you did. As I wander the road I look forward with anticipation and look back with remorse. Never again the same mistakes will I make is always in my mind and all the time in my mind I look to the future. As I make the past the distant past and and struggle to make the future the destination I want it to be. My struggles are real but they seem pointless for in the end the destination is always the same. As it grows nearer I wonder what the final destination will be. How long will it be before I reach it and what consequences will be bestowed upon me for the life that I've lead.

I feel today I made a personal gain. I rose from the ashes and became one with the others. We fought to our deaths and when it was over I looked back at it all and knew there was no way I could ever do it again. The time had passed for regrets and I myself had none. The short trip between the two lives was brief and unpleasant. I was here now in my new world with new people and I can't say it was any different. Everything seemed to be the same as before, the only difference being me.

Today could have been better. In order to form a more perfect union I did what I had to do. For those who don't understand I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. There will come a time when all those created equal have dispelled the notion that some of us are better than the rest until that happens I have taken matters into my own hands.When the world changes there will be a split and those who are divided at the tops and the bottoms by the other half will wonder what has happened. It is a perfectly logical occurrence with the meek at the top and the once strong at the bottom. The exact opposite the world is now. If you feel like you have been struggling and not making ends meet congratulations that struggle will soon be over. If you are at the top of the world now looking down at the rest of the world your treachery is about to begin. In my mind this treachery is well deserved and you should understand the reason.