Everyday I come to the same conclusion. The harder you try the faster you die. The faster you die the sooner you go and when you look back at life you'll wander the road that you took and wonder the why as to why you went the way that you did. As I wander the road I look forward with anticipation and look back with remorse. Never again the same mistakes will I make is always in my mind and all the time in my mind I look to the future. As I make the past the distant past and and struggle to make the future the destination I want it to be. My struggles are real but they seem pointless for in the end the destination is always the same. As it grows nearer I wonder what the final destination will be. How long will it be before I reach it and what consequences will be bestowed upon me for the life that I've lead.

I feel today I made a personal gain. I rose from the ashes and became one with the others. We fought to our deaths and when it was over I looked back at it all and knew there was no way I could ever do it again. The time had passed for regrets and I myself had none. The short trip between the two lives was brief and unpleasant. I was here now in my new world with new people and I can't say it was any different. Everything seemed to be the same as before, the only difference being me.

    I have said this before and I will say it again. To be denounced is to be ridiculed by a person for that persons own well being or social stature. I have been denounced many times but to stand for such in justice will never suffice. I have ridiculed many and to this day to my own personal dismay I have seen the turmoil it will cause another. To brainwash a person against another person is a social injustice and should never be tolerated. Throughout history it has shown to many times bring cruelty and injustice to a social class of people. I will not tolerate or should yourselves or others. To disrespect me should be to die, among the living you no longer belong because you have become something that will breed and spread to the minds of others. Do not wish to harm me by defamation thou will not tolerate this as I swear to punish those who cause me damages. As I personally abide by my own rules and wish you no harm but will respect your self image as you will respect mine.