There won't be a moment that I can recall that will bring this period of anxiety to a final end. The truth is that the further along I go the longer it seems I have to wait. Eventually I know it's coming but time is completely at a stand still.

I feel today I made a personal gain. I rose from the ashes and became one with the others. We fought to our deaths and when it was over I looked back at it all and knew there was no way I could ever do it again. The time had passed for regrets and I myself had none. The short trip between the two lives was brief and unpleasant. I was here now in my new world with new people and I can't say it was any different. Everything seemed to be the same as before, the only difference being me.