If you look for the future to come around and be a place of fortitude and prosperity you have to look at how this is gonna happen. If you feel like I do you will discover the plan is a plan of substantial gain but is to be manipulated by the person who has the plan. To manipulate a plan is to look at the plan and render the the plan a plan of robust outwardly development that you and you alone can administer. When you administer your plan you have to be entirely sure that your plan can't be thwarted by any opposing opposition. You have to look at the opposition and plan that they will plan to stop your advancements to the best of their ability. Thus a plan that is going to be administered has to have a plan of conditionality if and any event should occur.

Everyday I come to the same conclusion. The harder you try the faster you die. The faster you die the sooner you go and when you look back at life you'll wander the road that you took and wonder the why as to why you went the way that you did. As I wander the road I look forward with anticipation and look back with remorse. Never again the same mistakes will I make is always in my mind and all the time in my mind I look to the future. As I make the past the distant past and and struggle to make the future the destination I want it to be. My struggles are real but they seem pointless for in the end the destination is always the same. As it grows nearer I wonder what the final destination will be. How long will it be before I reach it and what consequences will be bestowed upon me for the life that I've lead.

I feel today I made a personal gain. I rose from the ashes and became one with the others. We fought to our deaths and when it was over I looked back at it all and knew there was no way I could ever do it again. The time had passed for regrets and I myself had none. The short trip between the two lives was brief and unpleasant. I was here now in my new world with new people and I can't say it was any different. Everything seemed to be the same as before, the only difference being me.