I didn't ever feel dismissive about my life but there where times when I could dismiss things for reasons I never even knew.  If there is something you don't care about that you should you can't condemn yourself for not caring. Somethings matter and some things don't at least to some people. If you want  to understand why that is you would have to understand the persons persona. My own persona is one of pertenential beliefs, The belief that all things good and bad can happen for any reason. If bad things happen you have to let it go. Don't dwell upon it. That will make you unhappy. You have to look at it dismiss it and move on. The past is the past and the future is certainly to have more of the good and the bad in store be ready but don't over indulge in the future either. The best thing to do is live in the present at the moment of consciousness concious, where your mind is physically and physiologicaly. Becoming to involved with cognotive thought will over illuminate a diffrent part of your life that you can' t even be at at the particualr time. Why go there. Stay within your realm and do whatever makes you happiest at the particular moment. Whatever that may be. People who do always look to the future or dwell on the past go through life in momentary cognocios and don't really interact as much with the world around them. Don't be one of these people. Try to take in your surroundings as much as you can for the things that surround you are what matter in a manner of speaking. If your unhappy with your surroundings ask yourself why that is and move to a new location. If your having problems relocating yourself ask yourself why that is. If there is a reason ask yourself whats the reason for the reason. If there is a reason beyond your control learn to accept that. If there is a reason you can manage manage it to the best of your ability. Don't look back and don't live with regrets. The better you feel about yourself the better off you will be. Don't let others influence your opinion of yourself. Your own view is the only view that matters. As long as you feel you are a person that meets your expectations then others have to accpet you for who you are. Believe it or not your are exactly who you are suppose to be.

When I walk I walk with the lord or rather he walks with me. So I said "lord where we walking to?" He said "we'll know when we get there son." Now I don't care but should I trust the lord?

Advised by the men I told the truth to my father. I lived the lie before and I knew I could do it again but not this time. I looked upon him and swore to tell him what had really become of the land he had set forth for my brother. I have gifted the land to the Jews I told him. What? he replied looking at me sternly. The land I said I gifted it. How could you he said becoming very angry. Well I said it was to become friends with their people. I don't believe this he replied. I set that land aside with the instructions it go to my son your brother. How could you do this. I'm sorry father I stammered. Well remove them from the land and the people once gone the land will be presented as I have instructed. But father I shrieked the land is their home they have no place to go. I don't care he screamed if their not gone by midday i will have them removed myself! And as for you you have made a strict enemy out of your own brother and also made a mockery of thyself. I will have you confined to your quarters. but... I stammered. No buts. I'm furious with you. Fine I replied and left the presence of my father. I went straight to my room and looked out the window at the home of the Jews. Throw them off the land indeed.. For he has no mercy. So my brother can have another parcel of land to call his own. What a tyrant they could both be. As for me I myself have the concern of the people. I will do what's just and right not what's best for my brother and thyself. My father will behead me for if he knew what I had planned he would certainly order my death. I gathered all I could muster and walked back into his chambers. Father I said I would like to speak to you about the home of the Jews. The land my father replied that belongs to your brother? What now? They can't leave and I will oppose you at every stretch I replied. He look at me bewildered and shrugged. So have it your way. Guards! he screamed. Seize him! I slashed at him with the sword from my side and my blade met flesh. I had slashed his throught deeply and blood sputtered from with in. How could you he said with a look of astonishment. I replied back I have watched this tyranny for to long its about time I took action. I plunged the sword deep into his heart. Enjoy the after life father I said with a feeling of satisfaction. I snatched the crown from his head and placed it firmly onto my own. I am the new king I said to the guards. Now where is my brother?