instant keto that is because I'm a mess like I'm just a mess of a person I can't be a consistent youtuber because I can't see YouTube as a job I went through a phase where I really saw YouTube as a job and it just killed everything I was so stressed I didn't like YouTube and now I literally don't film unless I'm in the mood to film I'm also a lazy person so the two just don't go well together and I end up not posting in a while and I know that's bad but when I'm not posting on this channel I'm posting on my vlog channel and kind of vice-versa basically I need to find balance but I'm also a mess and that's the entire reason that's the reasoning